Courage

For the 21874th time, sorry for not blogging.  I was either too busy violating (and abusing) my free time with FIFA 12 and Dues Ex: Human Revolution (which is shizz AWESOME) or finishing up the assignments I stockpiled all this while, and juggling the tensions of organizing an event with an absurdly demanding crowd.

*sigh* I hate it when I find myself in a position where I have to sigh.  It shows near intolerable levels of frustration.  But I'll soldier on, as I have been doing all my life.  Unfortunately, that means the inevitable outcome of not meeting some expectations.  I'll take the bullet for the team.

But I seem to be bereft of confidence lately...  Maybe it's the big odds placed against me.  Or it could just be me under-performing.  Well, sadly I've been in a mess lately.  Gotta get out of this slump soon.  I'm sure I will buck up.  Just need to push myself instead of someone else helping me. 

I need more courage.  And I'll drive myself to get some.  I must.

Let This Go - Paramore

Idiot

I just miss those times where I felt that I mattered.  At least, to someone.  Idiotic me.

Baby Blue - Dave Matthews Band

Blank

Sorry I haven't posted for a while!!  Another one of those "no incidents, no post" scenarios.

Had an interesting day at the Kuala Gandah Elephant Sanctuary yesterday.  We got to feed some elephants as well as ride on them.  It was... scary yet fun (as all new things are).  Then we were supposed to bathe the baby elephants later that afternoon.  BUT they decided to take a leak and dump(s) in the river with the workers.  So that idea was (thankfully) scrapped.

So blah blah blah, everything ordinary about a trip.  Long hours in the bus, restlessness, and some snoozing.  Best of all, no report required.

And I'm having emotional conflicts again.  G-Dang it

Rumour Has It - Adele