Friday, 23 February 2018

Invincible

Life's weird.

On one hand, you can find yourself realising that for once, you're not alone in the love department. Dating a complete stranger met online can actually be fun, and before you know it, you've unpacked the past five years of your life to a complete stranger.

You feel invincible, because you know that she'll be there for you, because in some magical way, she low-key wants to see you, too.

On flip side, you can find yourself trodding back home in the pouring rain. Somehow, your drenched clothes don't faze you. Lightning arcs threaten nearby as the raindrops hit you harder.

You don't give a shit, because you know you're invincible. Even after another fucking shitty day at work, you know that your boss won't get the better of you. Hell, you're even bullish enough to assume you aren't easily replaced.

But life goes on. You can only hope that you find your egress from this miserable job, so that you can enjoy every other good thing in your life.

P.S. She's not my girlfriend... Yet (but don't tell my parents a word).

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Thursday, 25 January 2018

Book

Congrats, you let the villain in the book actually read a story about them in real life.

You dug up that old, traumatic event.

You didn't think to countercheck on who you're divulging info to.

You preyed on someone's curiosity and well intentions and sold them down the river.

Fang, you're a fucking idiot at times.

I Dare You - The XX

Wednesday, 3 January 2018

2018

It's the new year!

Two days in and I'm already down with some stomach flu and fever so that's... less than ideal.

Here's to less unfulfilled resolutions, for me, at least.

I know that I didn't quite list down last year's resolutions, as I had came up with a few along the way so I guess I somewhat got some done?

I wanted to be more outgoing in 2017, so I guess hiking KK, going on a blind date, and doing some bouldering did the trick.

For 2018, I'll keep it simple and focus on just two goals (for now).

The first, is to get that book published (going through final edits, promise!).  I'm hoping to get a few copies ready for when I revisit The States.  Liang's graduating in the Spring so you bet I'm work my darnedest to have a comeback tour of my own.

The second, and the main goal for the year, is to work towards achieving peak fitness.  I know, it's a big ask, coming from me.  However, I need to be more disciplined so I'm hoping to beat my head in with an excessive amount of running.  We'll see if it actually translates to hitting the gym more often, but for now, it'll mainly be running, futsal and the occasional badminton/swimming session.

Sidenote, The Usual Gang had a nice New Year's get-together dinner so that was great, especially since 14/15 (missing you, Suz!) of us were miraculously free that day.

It was a nice to have a Secret Santa session as well and I'm extremely grateful that Chin didn't receive mine (which was a grow-your-own-Mint kit) because he would outright kill it.  I got Pauline's present two years in a row now, and it's a knitted blanket in the shape of a mermaid.  Needless to say I won't be posting pictures of it... here.

Super Far - LANY

Sunday, 31 December 2017

Review

I suck at coming up with novel ideas for year-end review (nor do I catalog/recollect events that well).  So, I am (again) stealing Yan Chee's idea, which was stolen off Tumblr.  Yep.

It's a song-list of sorts, and I'll try to include new songs from this year and how I stumbled upon them, because life's odd discoveries are charming.

1:A song you like with a color in the title
Red & White & Blue & Gold - Aoife O'Donovan 
Taken off one of Obama's Spotify playlists (they're as classy as the man is)

2:A song you like with a number in the title
One Last Time - Ariana Grande
One of the her songs which I actually really like, plus it took a whole new meaning after the Manchester bombing, days before her concert

3:A song that reminds you of summertime
Yo Voy Ganao - Systema Solar
FIFA 18's story mode opens with you,the main character playing a 3-on-3 futsal match, in the middle of a Brazilian favela.  The best thing from an otherwise unchanged (and thus uninspiring) video game franchise.

4:A song that reminds you of someone you would rather forget about
Supercut - Lorde
Holding onto the best of memories, as my willing haunt (...too real?)

5:A song that needs to be played LOUD:
The Less I Know The Better - Tame Impala
Funky bass licks, some electronica and a head-bopping goodness.

6:A song that makes you want to dance (disclaimer, I've SO many songs for this spot):
Dessert - Dawin
Spotify listed this as my most played song.  Gotta hold my hand up.

7:A song to drive to:
Slide - Calvin Harris, Frank Ocean, Migos
Arguably the summer tune to play when travelling anywhere 

8:A song about drugs or alcohol
Brandy (You're a Fine Girl) - Looking Glass
Well, it's about a girl, who pours whisky down, end of.  Also, Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2 opener.

9:A song that makes you happy
Birds and the Bees - Dwilly feat. Kyle Thornton
Upbeat Jazz tune recommended by BFM's Take Five music segment.

10:A song that makes you sad
Un anno d'amore (C'est irreparable) - Mina
Of torn dualities, and Master of None Season 2 making me feel too much, for a comedy show.

11:A song that you never get tired of
Good Girls - LANY
A bit of 80s good dance influence, with a catchy tune.

12:A song from your preteen years
I'm Not Okay (I Promise) - My Chemical Romance
Self-explanatory.

13:One of your favorite 80’s songs (had to cheat for this one)
Under Pressure - Queen & David Bowie
Always played after a long day at work.  I blame it on Scrubs.

14:A song that you would love played at your wedding
I Found My Everything - Mary J. Blige
I blame the lovely Obamas.  Another one from their playlist.

15:A song that is a cover by another artist
Never Gonna Give You Up - Scott Bradlee's Postmodern Jukebox
YOU JUST GOT RICK-ROLLED!  Side note, Postmodern Jukebox is awesome.

16:One of your favorite classical songs:
Variations On Canon - Kyle Landry
Something more current, and self-explanatory.

17:A song that you would sing a duet with on karaoke:
Perfect - Ed Sheeran
Seriously, who doesn't love perpetually-drunk Rupert Grint?  Jokes.  You're great, Ed.

18:A song from the year that you were born (had to cheat for this one, too)
I'd Do Anything for Love (But I Won't Do That) - Meatloaf
Too real.

19:A song that makes you think about life
Sign of the Times - Harry Styles
One of my surprise albums of the year (because it's gooooood).

20:A song that has many meanings to you
China (The Industrial Era) - Geoff Knorr
To the most complete video game/boardgame mix, Sid Meier's Civilization VI.

21:A favorite song with a person’s name in the title
Kanye (Louis The Child Remix) - The Chainsmokers, sirenXX
Yep.  None of that ramble-laden songs with words that conveniently rhyme with one another (I'm looking at you, Closer feat. Halsey).

22:A song that moves you forward
Places to Go - Yuna
Place to see, people to meet, stories to remember.

23:A song that you think everybody should listen to
Something About Us - Balance & The Travelling Sounds
Yeah.  Daft Punk actually had meaningful lyrics in their incredible Discovery album.

24:A song by a band you wish were still together
If I Didn't Know Better (Live at Eddie's Attic) - The Civil Wars
A raw, and powerful performance from the duet.

25:A song by an artist no longer living
Mr. Magic (Through The Smoke) - Amy Winehouse
Misunderstood and under-appreciated for her time.  Such a loss.

26:A song that makes you want to fall in love
Dying to Start Again - Lovelife
... Yep.

27:A song that breaks your heart
How Do You Mend a Broken Heart - Al Green 
Thanks, Obama.

28:A song by an artist with a voice that you love
New York City - Lenny Kravitz
He's just oozing with cool.

29:A song that you like from a TV show
Main Theme - Mr. Robot 
*cue Techno thriller music*.

30:A song that reminds you of yourself
Crave You - Giselle, Flight Facilities
Daniella Andrade does a good cover, too.

So many songs, not enough questions.

Wednesday, 20 December 2017

Whim

I can't do with spontaneity most of the time: it's inefficient. It seldom works. It wastes my time.

I can't afford unnecessary things.

I micromanage my weekends and off-days because that's all the time I can afford to be in the company and service of others. It's my commitment to myself, and to my friends that I'm engaged with them at the present moment.

If I'm not fully engaged, or if that allocation goes to waste, then it's a non-refundable block of time I could have shared with someone else.

Maybe I just don't like the lack of thought put into ideas. That "being spontaneous" is an excuse to churn out half-baked, non-committal promises that one day, a poorly thought-out plan can actually work.

Until that day, I'm going to assume all (your) off-the-cuff plans suck. Especially if you had done absolutely zero research on the very thing you want to do.

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Saturday, 9 December 2017

Panda

Hey... so... kinda a bit of a ramble here because it's slightly controversial.

I think Pandas, as cute as they are, should just not be bothered with.

Yeah, they're adorable.  Yes, it's a protected animal. 

But hear me out, those things are now so far detached from the wilderness that it's domesticated.  It's no more than a house cat.

They're so clumsy, so expensive to take care of, and demand such a specific (and energy-inefficient) diet of bamboo shoots that it's a far cry from what you would normally define as a bear.

If you put them out in the wilderness, they will perish.  And hey, we should save cost and leave them to die.  They have nothing to contribute to civilization aside from being a unique token animal.

There.  That's my two cents.  Come at me.

Sidenote, I'm 2/3 of the way to finishing my Sidisi, Brood Tyrant Commander deck for Magic: The Gathering (yeah, geeky me), so that's exciting.

Also, I got a book over the Big Bad Wolf book sale so hopefully I'll read it.

Oh, and I should really, really either complete the plethora of my video games, or finish editing my book. 

Aguanile - Marc Anthony

Thursday, 23 November 2017

Dreams

So... I went on my first date last weekend. That's... Mind-boggling. But anyway, it was not meant to be since there was a blatant lack of chemistry.

Either way, she was leaving for East Malaysia for good in a month's time so it wasn't a viable situation.

And as Sabr aptly puts it, I'm a lover boy: constantly swooning over someone else, usually out of reach (for a killer combo of logistical and emotional reasons).

So until the next date (whenever that may be), I guess I'm an acquaintance or a friend. And nothing more.

It's pretty frustrating to be a realist while still succumbing to the delusions of naive love.

For my wellbeing, I should stop dreaming of you. It's also concerning that I said "should" instead of "need to".

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