Recently I've been berating my job because of the stress and unnecessary hoops I've to jump through. On three occasions have I contemplated resignation, and I've barely been there for three months. It's a vicious cycle of being unable to deliver on expectations and yet, not having the training or guidance to meet those expectations.
Went things go well (meaning that we detect no problems in our products), things can be smooth-sailing. However, when things oddly go bad (I've seen two so far), my boss quickly rears her head and gives everyone hell. That's what bums me, because the team gets unnerved as a result and her hairdryer treatment seldom yields positive results as she tends to just accuse others of incompetence than to provide constructive criticism.
But after meeting with my mother's extended family over the weekend, I can see how proud and excited they are for my recent occupation. It's slowly growing on me that I've been recognised to be a competent adult and maybe that's just the push I need to soldier on with this position. It really depends on how the week starts, especially since my colleague is on leave for the week.
Also, one of my key team players had handed me his resignation letter just before I got off work today. I can't seem to shake the idea that my lack of strong leadership through challenges played a part in his decision. I dread finding someone to replace him.
Final note, I played my first football game with the kids in my new community. Albeit I had only played for half an hour, I found myself overrunning dribbles and misplacing simple passes. One kid even called me an uncle. I'll show that runt when I return to the pitch tomorrow.
Just kidding. I'll probably get schooled. But hey, at least I get to assume the eventual role of player/coach when I get to know them better. Plus it's a good excuse to get back to peak fitness levels.
Went things go well (meaning that we detect no problems in our products), things can be smooth-sailing. However, when things oddly go bad (I've seen two so far), my boss quickly rears her head and gives everyone hell. That's what bums me, because the team gets unnerved as a result and her hairdryer treatment seldom yields positive results as she tends to just accuse others of incompetence than to provide constructive criticism.
But after meeting with my mother's extended family over the weekend, I can see how proud and excited they are for my recent occupation. It's slowly growing on me that I've been recognised to be a competent adult and maybe that's just the push I need to soldier on with this position. It really depends on how the week starts, especially since my colleague is on leave for the week.
Also, one of my key team players had handed me his resignation letter just before I got off work today. I can't seem to shake the idea that my lack of strong leadership through challenges played a part in his decision. I dread finding someone to replace him.
Final note, I played my first football game with the kids in my new community. Albeit I had only played for half an hour, I found myself overrunning dribbles and misplacing simple passes. One kid even called me an uncle. I'll show that runt when I return to the pitch tomorrow.
Just kidding. I'll probably get schooled. But hey, at least I get to assume the eventual role of player/coach when I get to know them better. Plus it's a good excuse to get back to peak fitness levels.
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