Sentiments

I'm frustrated.

That's all I can say.

There's no blind anger,

no random blitz,

this time a focal point does exist.

Sadly, it's you.

Maybe I don't mean as much to you as I did previously,

but then again I had some value back then.

Now?

Now I'm just a face in a laptop screen.

So far from where you're sitting,

that I may not even exist.

So yes, I'm mad at you.

This will be as blatant as it gets.

About this morning,

when I said I didn't mind,

I lied.

Like I always do,

so that you don't have a sleepless night,

swallowed in guilt.

At least you're sensitive enough to feel that strand of emotion.

Funny how you keep me waiting,

even now,

in a different aspect.

And in solitude,

again I'll find the oldest of friends,

even if tears and reluctance is what keeps us together.

This is just a simple meeting.  Should you not be able to make it on the agreed time, tell me!  It's not that bloody hard!  Sigh.  I'm exasperated.

Not While I'm Around - Jamie Cullum